Dokomi

Big ass post about Dokomi!
Its just me updating how im doing, my thoughts and feelings ect 

tf is a Pipichino

Dispite everything i DID save up for Dokomi. I also refuse to live in poverty. Ofc ill need to tone it tf down (looking at kickstarter and backerkit). I just mean in terms of like general living.

If somebody gets on my ass ab buying a lil trinket, fancy drink, whatever, i might shoot em to the moon. 

Ngl i looked up next time Belgium sgotta vote... but 2029 earlyest hhh

I was actually preparing for after Dokomi to "hibernate". I rest alot already but posibly even more then. To keep the heat manageable (bc passed out = not aware of suroundings). Cough... bed rot... sigh...  need to formulate a msg to friends so i dont worry them too much. But likly (as stupid as it sounds) will limit myself to vc twice a week, if not doable just once... maybe even pause for the seasen. Maybe even compleatly mute the whole server if it gets a lil too much (aka my mental health worsening. Not my friends being "too much")

Will b atempting to make a lil extra money where posible. Posibly sell stuff on vinted, but main trouble is shipping stuff out. I have a Bbox next to where i live but not everybody wants shit shipled w Bpost.

In regards to what: some LPS (pls dw, theyre double nibs, been meaning to sell em for awhile)

Some pins/keychains i dont want anymore. Maybe even put... a doll for sale... ;;

Perhaps my Good Omens book (tho idk if ppl would buy that given the curcinstances.

Maybe my Kaeye shrine (love the character but hes just not my fav anymore)

Some opend blind box figures... manga? Anime?

Also aplied to ACGgoods... again. I did in the past b4 the rebrand. But the code expired lol. Would b nice...

Perhaps atempt to do some commissions... tho will change that compleatly just so its 1 managable for me and 2 i gues cater more to the art style my branding is known with. Perhaps i could draw ppls pets or fursonas.

Maybe put a lil discount on them till i get a living wage 

Lil nervous for cons i vend at in terms of buying stock... but ill manage

On a compleatly diff note

I wokw up with "pipichino" in my head. Idk if thats a real thing ir not...

Holy shit

one thing after another

Sigh

Update on my situation. I ttped it out once so im just puting a pic of it here bc im... tired

So pray i get accepted asap.

TF U MEAN??? TOO LATE FOR WHAT???

Almost Dokomi..  anxiety settling in convincing im "too late" idk what for but its kicking in my fawn response. Shits pathetic ngl. 

I gues i wanted to have another top n din find any?
This is the next day of writing that, still have the anxiety BUT i also realized i have a bunch of tie-dye'd shits i havnt worn in awhile so im gon cut sleeves off of one of those.
I did it! yippay! Maybe i should do it to some of my other ones aswel

Been trying to make a list with everything i should bring and im so anxious ill forget something important. But then i also wrote down to bring underwear for a whole army like im gon shit myself thrice a day. 
Ive also been making some accesories with beads, have a wip thats a chain? it has big stars i made out of pony beads! wanna make some bracelets, maybe a necklace too? Im just a bit nervous im gonna get self conscious when wearing them and end up taking them off.
AAAh i still need to decorate my ita bag hhh

Its way too hot. Rly tryna keep it together but after Dokomi im likly gon uhhh... recluse? summer is the worst for me. I cannot handle this weather in the slightest. Ontop of that it affects my mental health too? they out to get me fr.

 

I panic bought another hand fan

"what if my current one dies mid con" i have a powerbank
"what if i need it for my phone" i wont

"the current one is a couple years old now, it can break any minute!" it literally hasnt shown any signs of breaking

Well Gran wanted one and "well this is the perfect chance for another! maybe u can lend out one of them to a friend so they dont die!" THEN WHY TF WOULD I WORRY AB THE FIORST FEW THINGS???

 

I keep checking my bank acc bc its the end of the month and i have NOT been paid. Rly frustrating

 

I have appointment at 10, its currently 6.30 and i have not slept. I will after. Im just filled w alot of anxiety. 

 

A friend had a moth battle, i was in vc w them for moral suport. I did draw these 2, imagining what it was like to b there

How to put a lock on Vinted

Its been multiple times now where im half asleep scrolling on vinted and ending up buying smtg hhh. And like OK theyre never big sums of money sure, but in my proper awake state i usually take awhile to buy something so i can look over and see if theres other options ect...

So recently i bought these LPS stickers, Poodle and Lady bug... sigh. Dont get me wrong, they are things i want! BUT I SHOULDNT JUST BE SPENDING MONEY WILLY NILLY. The stickers are legit, as in they where sold/made by hasbro back in the day. I do want more lps stickers... I have been meaning to try out Wooacry for awhile now, maybe i should just set up a file w only LPS stuff and get it printed trough them.... To test out quality ya kno...
Anyway here is a picture

And last night i ended up buying 3 of those big-ass LPS LMAO
Looking now at the listings they looks so dirty, crying. WHY ARE THEY SO SHINY!?? Maybe i should just use em for repainting. TBF i apparently got them all for 12euro INCL shipping. While usually they go for like 15euro excl shipping on its own. Id love to eventually own more of the big ones! Its rare for a toy line to perfectly scale up their toys without it looking wonky! Awhile back a friend of mine gave me her old collection including the big purple bunny! 
Anyway heres pictures of those i bought

 

I love listening to DJ-sets on youtube. Helps me discover new songs and i like to see the ppl boogy from the corner of my eye lmao. Listening to Bobby Ghanoush playing some city pop (rly nice, def recomend!). However ive never seen? Usually DJs wear a headset or take em off n put em on when switching a song, but they??? have some kinda phone doohickey??? i thought it was a phone but its too long and has some kind of disk that they put to their ear???- holy shit i JUST realized, it IS a doohickey!!! its 1 ear of a headset with a handle, legit never seen anything like that. Not sure if its an actual thing or custom made.
Heres a picture (not from video but shows it best) 

hm

Ok so i wrote this 2 days ago, im able to properly think now. Tuesday i have an appointment, hopefully theyl be able to help me further

I dont like having my lil meltdowns in the open so... 

 

grunpy sleepy rambles

3 days in a row i wasnt able to sleep alot. Today i have n apointment at 10am so hqd to wake up at 8am. Rly grumpy rn. When in back home im going back to bed bc im starting to feel tge reprocusions. Dosnt help i hqd 4-ish hours to sleep and woke up multiple times bc i was stressed my alarm din go off. 

I need to go to a social healthcare thing? Dude idfk, ocmw wilt da ik naar een info sessie ga? Mf 40 minuten me tram terwijl der 1 naast mijn deur is like ik kan et letterlijk uit mijn venster zien. Punching the mf air so hard rn.

Anyway on a better note:

Had ALOT of fun on birthday party! I got so many presents! A new bigger hyena plush, its the exact same model as my lil one my partner gav3 me for new year... except tge big one has hins legs lol. A button of Ko-eh but HAND PAINTED??? Its so pretty i cri. A bunch of new scrapbook/journaling stuff (stickers, notes, refillabke pencil etc), 3 lps bases w 1 i dont have (as base, the spaniel!l) tgey heads so focking hard LMAO? An lps eraser, is same size as lps... but eraser, new sylvanian famillies family, Adam Ellis 2nd horror comic! (Ngl i never finish tge first bc of that weird anxiety. Like i got the last ch bookmarked but in my heqd its like "if i read it i cant enjoy it anymore". But now i CAN read it bc i got tge 2nd!), a burrito dog plush (u can un-ritto gis ass lmao), my very first Beanie baby Luke the blackab (is so toiny and precious oufhg), set of 120 paint markers! In a nice case!! 

Uhh im tired, i likly gotn more n dont remember? 

Oh and also sylvanian familys rain set! Lije lil mouse n panda with raincoat, boots and unbrella but friend couldnt give yet (i asked them to draw it, its rly cute hehe)

Im sorry to any friend reqding and i forgot to mention what tgey gave me. I gen apreciate EVERYTHING i was gifted! But i cant check as im not home. 

Ofc then we crafted! Everybody made such nice pieces! Im only upset w myself i yet again din finish a project in time sigh. Im so happy w tge ones i got!! Will b using as inspiration aswel wehehe

Made in time!! Like 15 mins b4 yippee.

It took an hour. Some intresting stuff i gues. Was 2nd to leave bc we had to put signature on paper and i was sitting in front hehehhe..

I will put up pictures another time bc tired.... hadto fight sleep on tram wuh

If im correct i should b free for a week and a half? Ample time to recover + unexpected making plans. Rn i wanna code so lets hope i keep that motivation!

Also for a good few days now ive been wanting to rewatch the Saw movies. Ive watched them all (i think another is in the works?) I LOVE those movies, theryre so ridiculous, over the top and theres a trillion plot twists to the point that they make NO SENSE. I just find torture devices rly intresting. I gotta givw credit tho tge first 2 r good story wise.

Im not looking forward to summer. I always crash due to the heat. It sucks bc ive missed my partners bday party several times. It makes me feel like ppl could intepret it as intential but i swear its not. It makes me feel HORRIBLE. Its like anything above 15°c and i die. I gen dont know if this is normal atp. I heat up like crazy, sweating like no tomorow. 

Im in bed falling aslesl.

Trans horse-girl Teto? Hell yea

For the first time i tried coding from scratch. Wanted to make my About me page for neocities... and... its going... it looks like ass yea but i made that!! thats my ass!!! its a HUGEEEE wip n i wish i could continue on it but i gotta wrap it up n pack my shit n head to bed bc BORTHDAY PARTY!!!

Heres what i got, friend who done coding in school told me "yea thas how we all start" wich felt validating. I want it to be space/alien themed. Cursor could b a UFO. I just need to remind myself to have fun, its ok if it looks like ass bc im still new to it BUT IM DOING IT!!!

 

And heres a mini inspiration board

 

OH and lastly
Been having this song on repeat LMAO 

sick or allergy

Hmmm i tgink allergy bc this the seasen of pollen. But my back/shoulder is hurting. Shes scares it might b a lung infection... i dont think that. I woke up sone days ago w my shoulder hurting when i do surtain movement. However it also hurts when i breath in a lil too deep or when i sneeze. I do think i slept laying wrong. Im hyper flexible n to get in a comfy position i tend to bend my body in strange ways. The pain already lessened much. 

I bought a new backpack. Been looking for a hot while. Was first intending to get a light blue one but then i remembered its likly gon get dirty. So i ended up w a darked turquoise... i recieved it n its a bit darker then expected sigh. Still like it tho. Its not a regular backpack, its meant for traveling. So it has like 1 main pocket thats majority of tge backpack. It has elastic inside like a suitcase n u can open it up compleatly. And then it has a bunch of hiden pockets. I felt lije this better suited my wants/needs then my old backpack (wich is like 6 years by now damn) also just rly wanna step away from black unless its smtg i rly like. Cougg i used to only get black items so i wouldnt b noticed. Bc it felt the safest. N then i realised thas a horrible way to live so i started buying colordul stuff bc it makes me happy. Also wanna sew a bunch of my patches onto it.

Rebloging Project Hail Mary content like my life depends on it. I also see and reblog some blodymary stuff (Iron Lung X Project Hail Mary) I dont rly ship it romanticly (neither do i mind the ship). In my mind Grace is aroace. But i like blodymary for Simons potential. Also Grace and Simon queer platonic partners? hmmm- yes. 

 

I found Marginalia-search and been exploring on there. Its a search engine but the goal is just exploring if that makes sense. I love those kinda things. Found a blog thats been reviewing difrent kinds of dolls since 2012 and has a post as recent as april this year. When looking trough it i found some doll lines i completely forgotten about. 

 

Goodlord, i wanted to pick up the shirt i ordered but its raining pretty hard.

 

I revamped my blog! Its now fish yippee

 

Bruh i liked 1 (one) death note post n now my whole tumblr is full of it

 

Recently i changed up my Toyhouse profile, i rly like how its looking :3 I should get back to coding my site. But my brain is occupied with "must draw" Bc i at least want to have a reference for Astra before Artfight starts this year. This is what i got so far. Wont be bothering with lineart.

pant :^(

Been looking on vinted, adding stuff to my wislist.
I found this brand called CFIERCE trough it, They have nice stuff but id b happy if i fit my big toe in any of their clothes (they seem to only have S, M and L). Ontop of that the price is rly high holy moly. 

Imma complain for the bajilionth time ab pants again. I was looking on vinted for pants but as expected: its either black, leggings, panties??? or sombodys grandma died. It gives a whooping 4 pages! My pants size is 58 (sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller) wich should be around 6xl? Problem is theres about a 20cm difference in my waist and hip circumference. So i either need pants with a pull string or use a belt wich always just scrunckles up weird. I have to buy womens pants bc mens pants just fit me horribly. Theres only really a handful of places i know that carries my size, Bonprix, Shein (not even gon link em bc i bought pants like once n they horrible quality) and Shiny by Nature. 
I dont doubt theres more brands and if ppl know any i would love to know!!!! 
I just really want pants that are like colorful, kidcore, colorblock ect. But its all so boring! I either have to prioritize style (most are just black leggings!!!), size (most importand one) or price! Bc If i like how it looks and it fits its gonna cost so much and/or its outside europe so i need to pay customs on that aswel!
I would love shorts but i need all my pants to reach below my knees bc when i walk my knees touch, so when i sweat it just ends up ripping open my skin! So i only really wear them when i know i dont really need to walk.
Ive found that the only brand that really fits me good (and like actually be comfortable) is Shiny by Nature. But theyre in america! And their brand have gone from being rly cute and colorful to more basic now... I also really dislike their marketing, the only thing they go on about is that theyre the only brand that fits big hips and constantly have a "limited time discount" hhh

I ordered boba!
Orderd 3 drinks, first one i never had was Pistachio with soy milk and coco jelly, rly liked it! 2nd was smtg galaxy, no clue what flavour but it was eh. Last also forgot name... but smtg w peach and foam?

Whole day i looked trough backpacks n finally bought one. Id like to bring it to dokomi! Bought some uhh? Upgrades too! Like a thingy to connect acros ur chest! And a small pocket to hang on the strap to put my phone in, or money? I wanna wear smtg that will b comfy and wont make me sweat like crazy. But i still wanna look a lil fancy. Will wear posm ears bc easyest, seeveless shirt w skeleton on, blue pants n then make a bunch of accesories w beads? Not sure ab 2nd day. . Looking on vinted.... hmmm

Spend majority of my day in vc. Now im tired