Ok so i wrote this 2 days ago, im able to properly think now. Tuesday i have an appointment, hopefully theyl be able to help me further
I dont like having my lil meltdowns in the open so...
I feel like throwing up, i got a letter back ab disability. Im not accepted. They ask for more info i dont know what kind. Im confused. Im scared. Im panicking. I already reached out for help b4 i shut down. I wanna cry.
I feel like im being too emotional ab this. I mean i shouldv expected it i gues? i was just holding out hope. I should calm tf down b4 i completely crash out. Theyre asking for more info, perhaps i still have a chance.
Wtf will i do if they rly dont accept me.
I just couldnt bring myself to tell gran. Shes been saying money hard, now this. I should tell her tho bc otherwise i might never.
God fucking hell, i wish i wasnt disabled, i wish i could go work, i wish i wasnt like this.
Ofc 1 thing wrong makes me hyper aware and now everything is weighting on me.