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I use my blog as a diary, therefore there will be alot of spelling mistakes and some cussing. I may touch on some heavy and sensitive topics not appropriate for kids. I do try to put some kind of warning in the post itself

18 May 2026

grunpy sleepy rambles

3 days in a row i wasnt able to sleep alot. Today i have n apointment at 10am so hqd to wake up at 8am. Rly grumpy rn. When in back home im going back to bed bc im starting to feel tge reprocusions. Dosnt help i hqd 4-ish hours to sleep and woke up multiple times bc i was stressed my alarm din go off. 
I need to go to a social healthcare thing? Dude idfk, ocmw wilt da ik naar een info sessie ga? Mf 40 minuten me tram terwijl der 1 naast mijn deur is like ik kan et letterlijk uit mijn venster zien. Punching the mf air so hard rn.

Anyway on a better note:
Had ALOT of fun on birthday party! I got so many presents! A new bigger hyena plush, its the exact same model as my lil one my partner gav3 me for new year... except tge big one has hins legs lol. A button of Ko-eh but HAND PAINTED??? Its so pretty i cri. A bunch of new scrapbook/journaling stuff (stickers, notes, refillabke pencil etc), 3 lps bases w 1 i dont have (as base, the spaniel!l) tgey heads so focking hard LMAO? An lps eraser, is same size as lps... but eraser, new sylvanian famillies family, Adam Ellis 2nd horror comic! (Ngl i never finish tge first bc of that weird anxiety. Like i got the last ch bookmarked but in my heqd its like "if i read it i cant enjoy it anymore". But now i CAN read it bc i got tge 2nd!), a burrito dog plush (u can un-ritto gis ass lmao), my very first Beanie baby Luke the blackab (is so toiny and precious oufhg), set of 120 paint markers! In a nice case!! 
Uhh im tired, i likly gotn more n dont remember? 
Oh and also sylvanian familys rain set! Lije lil mouse n panda with raincoat, boots and unbrella but friend couldnt give yet (i asked them to draw it, its rly cute hehe)
Im sorry to any friend reqding and i forgot to mention what tgey gave me. I gen apreciate EVERYTHING i was gifted! But i cant check as im not home. 

Ofc then we crafted! Everybody made such nice pieces! Im only upset w myself i yet again din finish a project in time sigh. Im so happy w tge ones i got!! Will b using as inspiration aswel wehehe

Made in time!! Like 15 mins b4 yippee.
It took an hour. Some intresting stuff i gues. Was 2nd to leave bc we had to put signature on paper and i was sitting in front hehehhe..

I will put up pictures another time bc tired.... hadto fight sleep on tram wuh
If im correct i should b free for a week and a half? Ample time to recover + unexpected making plans. Rn i wanna code so lets hope i keep that motivation!

Also for a good few days now ive been wanting to rewatch the Saw movies. Ive watched them all (i think another is in the works?) I LOVE those movies, theryre so ridiculous, over the top and theres a trillion plot twists to the point that they make NO SENSE. I just find torture devices rly intresting. I gotta givw credit tho tge first 2 r good story wise.

Im not looking forward to summer. I always crash due to the heat. It sucks bc ive missed my partners bday party several times. It makes me feel like ppl could intepret it as intential but i swear its not. It makes me feel HORRIBLE. Its like anything above 15°c and i die. I gen dont know if this is normal atp. I heat up like crazy, sweating like no tomorow. 

Im in bed falling aslesl.