TF U MEAN??? TOO LATE FOR WHAT???

Almost Dokomi..  anxiety settling in convincing im "too late" idk what for but its kicking in my fawn response. Shits pathetic ngl. 

I gues i wanted to have another top n din find any?
This is the next day of writing that, still have the anxiety BUT i also realized i have a bunch of tie-dye'd shits i havnt worn in awhile so im gon cut sleeves off of one of those.
I did it! yippay! Maybe i should do it to some of my other ones aswel

Been trying to make a list with everything i should bring and im so anxious ill forget something important. But then i also wrote down to bring underwear for a whole army like im gon shit myself thrice a day. 
Ive also been making some accesories with beads, have a wip thats a chain? it has big stars i made out of pony beads! wanna make some bracelets, maybe a necklace too? Im just a bit nervous im gonna get self conscious when wearing them and end up taking them off.
AAAh i still need to decorate my ita bag hhh

Its way too hot. Rly tryna keep it together but after Dokomi im likly gon uhhh... recluse? summer is the worst for me. I cannot handle this weather in the slightest. Ontop of that it affects my mental health too? they out to get me fr.

 

I panic bought another hand fan

"what if my current one dies mid con" i have a powerbank
"what if i need it for my phone" i wont

"the current one is a couple years old now, it can break any minute!" it literally hasnt shown any signs of breaking

Well Gran wanted one and "well this is the perfect chance for another! maybe u can lend out one of them to a friend so they dont die!" THEN WHY TF WOULD I WORRY AB THE FIORST FEW THINGS???

 

I keep checking my bank acc bc its the end of the month and i have NOT been paid. Rly frustrating

 

I have appointment at 10, its currently 6.30 and i have not slept. I will after. Im just filled w alot of anxiety. 

 

A friend had a moth battle, i was in vc w them for moral suport. I did draw these 2, imagining what it was like to b there