Used car salesman ab me; this thang can fit so much sleep in it

Imb so mad rn. It was a miday tired. I slept a good 3h n woke up needing to pee (i sleep in blocks of 3/5 hours) n now im not feeling sleep tired, tho i think i should b able to sleep some more. For tge record its 5.30 am rn n i got in bed around 1am.

The other day friends read my notes on Ilya. Friend said "gob and their vaguely religious cult themes r inseperable". Screaming, its true LMAO. Other friend asked if its bc religious trauma, but its not! My familie thinks religion is a joke 90% r eitger atheist or agnostic. Only ones i rly know to b overtly religios where my great grand mother and my great uncle (my grans mom n eldest brother). But neither ever tried to convert me. I think it might just b the same like japan. As in the relation of why theres so much crosses n western religious themes in alot of anime. N the main reasen is just "it looks cool" LMAO.

I did follow christian classes from like 6y/o till 12. I did my first comunion but thas it. I remember that class being boring. Just kinda coloring religious pages, reading in book ab some guy magicly making fish apear n whatnot. I di remember the teacher getting upset w me for not writing in the lines. And me asking questions wich frustrated them (likw just asking how tf jesus could walk on water ect). I also remember praying b4 bed, wich was just like "hello dear god, pls let my family be happy and let them love long healthy lives". Wich followed in like 8y/o me having a panic atack bc i was spiraling into "i will die, im so scared of dying, i wont b able to experience anymore" ect (wich not so fun fact, still a major trigger, i try to avoid the topic like the plauge). As of my beliefs rn im? Uh? Agnostic? Maybe slightly spiritual leaning? 

Its now 1pm. I woke up around 8am to pee again. I think since then i slept more but i honestly dont know. Im tired.. maybe i can sleep some more... after going to toillet that is. Ok its not like im ab tonpe myself, but my body just refuses to rest further untill i go pee. Hhhhhh (update on this; im very confused by the time stamps. i think i wrote em wrong. welp)

 

It is now 11am... woke up around 3am? fell asleep a few short times and got out of bed around 9. Safe to say i slept alot... Its saterday I RLY NEED TO GET AA DONE THIS WEEKEND!

My hands hurt from the cold, but i need to draw, oh woe is me.

It is 14.26, i hit midday tired. Wont go to bed ofc, but will take a lil break. Im in pain (headache and lower back), its bearable but annoying

22.24 rn... not finished...  im too lazy to properly explain however i explained to friend so just gon copy paste that 
"i wanna add stickers to sticker box, but i have new system so the names aremt correct anymore, so must take namers off the plastic cards (gran did that for me) and i put stickers on table so theyre styill kinda sorted? but i want them IN BOX, but they need to b sorted in box by number. but idk number yet bc i need to put them on display. so rn im orgenizing them digitally to put on display so i know what order top put them in
but i need to rly finish stuff top print from print n bind! but i promised gran to take the stickers of tab;e today"
so i finished but now im tired n have no energy to draw anymore. 

Went to bed at 1am, its now 2am... the following day rah 
Blessed be my local pizza place for being open to deliver till 2am. I tried their bolognese pizza (tomato sauce, minced meat, cheese, onion and garlic sauce) its rly nice imo!
I got outa bed around 0.30

The other day my mf nailpolish racks got deliverd... the thing i orderd last... bruh 
I hope the other stuff will arive asap, ESP my stamp bc i need to b stamping shit (cough, "make" my gran do it). I bought like a pack of mixed colored paper bags, n thered b some black ones wich dont rly fit my brand nor could i stamp those (u know black ink on black paper...) but i do have these round colord label stickers, maybe i could use those? Might look nice
Also gotta remind myself its not the end of the world if i dont finnish everything on my to do list im terms of display/decorations. I can always add/change things for a next edition

Finished my main banner (saying my name and has Marigold peeking from the cloud) and set up the files. Wont be doing Lux for this edition. Im tired again... miday tired? Its 4.15am rn hhh. I just want my shit finished so i can order it. I ended up doing those japanese morning radio excercises, it wasnt hard (tho lil confusing since i never done it b4), it helped a lil but still tired. 

Also on chicken smoothie theres an easter event now, every 20 mins u can collect eggs (by just looking trough the site) and u can trade those for a pet. Except i keep getting the same 2 kinds. theres 4 difr types of eggs and u need a combination of 3 to trade. So! i cant!! get any!!! rah!!

Ok i finished making my mystery sticker label/price thing. I made it so they need 2 stickers/labels. 1 in the front that says what it is and one in the back w extra info like how many there are inside, my name ect. This way i can use the black paper. Just annoyed bc its a lil bland. But at the same time it is just packaging that ppl will likly throw away, maybe in the future ill think of smtg better.
Also saw that i should b expecting some packages today, yippee 

9am: It just dawned on me i made 1 of the files for my banner wrong, WHEN WILL THIS END AAAAA. I have a cloud w my name on and want the word to be on a separate piece of foam so it looks more 3d... but i made the file just the cloud w the word on. hhh
Luckly i was able to put it on a smaller paper (need to print my banner on 2 A2 sized paper, the word fits just in an A3 if u put it sideways LMAO)
Also im now just kinda stalking the tracking codes for my packages 

11.55am: pakiges yaaay! Yippee!!
One tiny and 2 rly big ass ones??
14.11pm: i checked trough the packages, then gran made lunch. Everything came except the stamp. Great! Also... one of the long boxes came aswel? i supose the only had one and refunded the others lol. one of the smaller boxes came w a lil damage wich i was fine with... but then another small boxs lid is broken (theres a hole in it aaa)
Also the black paper bags turned out to be purple so thas nice. tho my mistake theyre not sticker sized so that wouldnt have worked anyway. Will try n fix the plastic boxes... with tape
FINGERS HURT BC COLD, i wear finger-less gloves bc i need the dexterity to do stuff.

23.04: Got in vc n now will sleep... ended up not finishing... soon... next time im awake... for now i hibernate once again