Im not affectionet, i infact dont like being touched or touching ppl. Talking ab my feelings is not my forté aswel... but ive cone to realize that i do crave it, just not from ppl. I miss hugging Izzy, patting her, playing with her, giving her smooches on her head, just laying next to her on the ground. (Getting choked up)
I so deeply crave such a connection. And i know i will have a dog again in the future but it wont be her (nvm im vrying agakm)
Just bawled my eyes out again. I dont rly understand. My grandpa who raised me passed some years ago now too yet it dosnt affect me quiet as much as Izzy does. N i know you cant compare how ppl mourn. But my friends seem to be able to handle their pets passing much better then i do. Well ofc i only know as much as they show.
I fell asleep after that lmao
I watched this video while drawing and it made me so fucking devastated. Im in absolute shambles. Its just the guy explaining the plot of Houseki no kuni, i remember when the anime first came out i watched a few episodes but it wasnt much for me. Even the video i only understood about half of it (spoiler warning ahead) Like i dont get what the praying exactly does or what it means? Why tf is the sensei a robot? Ok sure the moon ppl wanna take the gem ppl to make stuff out of them so the moon ppl r considerd bad... but why tf did they wanna end the world?? I also dont get why Phos joined the moon ppl?? Anyway-
What just rly got to me was that Phos whole thing was to become "useful" to everybody. They where a "weak" gem (hardness wise, as in they break easely) and so other gems can protect by fighting, Phos task is to just write down everything that happens. Ok imma shorten it or id just type everything the guy said lmao. But Phos basicly changed everything about themself, limbs, even head. They gained everything, literly reached godhood but lost everybody. To then meet some rock who is perfectly content with who they are. And then it hit Phos. They did not have to be useful to anybody. They just had to be... man. I just- i cannot put into words how much this affected me.
I watched this video while drawing and it made me so fucking devastated. Im in absolute shambles. Its just the guy explaining the plot of Houseki no kuni, i remember when the anime first came out i watched a few episodes but it wasnt much for me. Even the video i only understood about half of it (spoiler warning ahead) Like i dont get what the praying exactly does or what it means? Why tf is the sensei a robot? Ok sure the moon ppl wanna take the gem ppl to make stuff out of them so the moon ppl r considerd bad... but why tf did they wanna end the world?? I also dont get why Phos joined the moon ppl?? Anyway-
What just rly got to me was that Phos whole thing was to become "useful" to everybody. They where a "weak" gem (hardness wise, as in they break easely) and so other gems can protect by fighting, Phos task is to just write down everything that happens. Ok imma shorten it or id just type everything the guy said lmao. But Phos basicly changed everything about themself, limbs, even head. They gained everything, literly reached godhood but lost everybody. To then meet some rock who is perfectly content with who they are. And then it hit Phos. They did not have to be useful to anybody. They just had to be... man. I just- i cannot put into words how much this affected me.