I sometimes know within my dream that im dreaming
Im not completely able to do what i want and shortly after i wake up

Ive had some nightmares where this realization hit me and with alot of effort managed to open my eyes lmao

However last dream was a bit strange?
I dont really remember anything else of it. Except that i saw my grandpa, he said smtng while sitting on the couch and i walk passed him. I stopped in my tracks bc the sudden realization hit me "he passed away, im dreaming". I thought about just forcing myself to wake up but then had a better idea. I went to hug him. It was strange
I woke up needing to hold back tears, i felt rly sad.  

After that i ate a snack and fell asleep again
I only vaguely remember needing to run? get away? Bc smtng was out there, and if it got you, you where part of it.. yea idk man lmao