For some reason ive been feeling so anxious
Scared if i make a sudden move something will happen. Im not sure why? Ive been taking my meds, i dont have a deadline near? I supose some friends asked me to read a fic they wrote, wich i doubt its that but idk. It feels so ridiculous bc its just like "its gonna happen.. soon..." but idk WHAT??
I ended up watching Gabsmolders and play The sims, helped me for a bit but now that i stopped playing the feeling is back.
Im tired now tho and will be heading to bed soon. Ive found that recently when i put on my usual sleep playlist its not been "hitting". Yesterday i ended up putting on my "anti anxiety playlist and i think imma do the same now. Its a playlist by Caravan Palace, they released it when the covid lock down just happened. Ever since ive listened to it alot, and it genuinely helps me. Heres a link to it.
Ive been consuming more horror and gore because im anxious and it helps me think of other stuff. But i know its also a warning sign that im starting to not do so good mentally. My problem mainly is that i dont know what causes it. I also only know that rest may help me but it makes me feel bad bc i could be doing something instead... bleh
Realization just hit me im postponing my sleep by writing LMAO
