It stormed alot during the night. I rly liked it. Ive been awake since like 2am n its now 9am. I wanna sleep. It sucks it starts getting light out round like 4am. I got no problem going to bed when light out bc im dead tired then. But i have harder time falling asleep again when its light. I wanna get a sleeping mask i think. Also my eyes r gunky again??? Another reasen i dont wan get up. Is rly hot, wgen eye irritate n fan on i just cant see bc they hurt/itch then.
Went on to sleep till 1am, had plans to play game with friends but... yea. Starting to consume gore/uncomfortable media, laying in bed awake much longer then i should... im not doing great and the heat amplifies this. I feel gloomy and want to retreat from social contact... Socializing is becoming harder. Im sorry to friends, i apreciate all messages, but its taking more and more of my energy.
When i woke up i still went in vc tho. Friend and i body doubled eachother to draw. Im making very slow progress on my Astra ref, reasen it takes so long is bc i need to design so much. And Astra is a very importand character to me so i dont wanna half ass it... Kinda ironic bc Astra was made in a period of time i was doing mentally not so great. Anyway heres a lil wip, deciding to not line it. Also this is the best ever wings ive ever drawn, i will never b able to replicate it. Im happy they belong to Astra.
I also messely colored it bc i started too doubt stuff. Glad to confirm its how i imagined them. Only thing i din wanna give them paper white skin bc... oogly... AND idk wtf the inside of a lahore pigeons wing looks like?? Stuff will still change, mainly stuck on tattoos and clothes rn... I want pretty c lothe but... i no want draw cloht...
Also lmao just remembered
Imagine scaryst guy in town, ppl shiver at the mention of their name... and its just some gnc twink.
I hope it storms again soon, i used to be scared of thunder but i found it oddly calming.
Anyway is noon i should head to bed to avoid the coming heat