how long can it rly take for an elevator

I din sleep qlot as expected. Just rolling around alot. I was so confused when my alarm went lmao. Good i set like 4 bc i kept faling back asleep. Going to endo i forgot they blocked off a big portion of hospital so had to walk alllll the way around (i think idv been faster if i took 2 difr trams to get there ffs) and then i got at tge elevator... tgere where so many ppl. It took so long. It was finally here.... ppm get off new get on n i dont fit.... i then had to wait again... when FINALLY ny turn is alot of ppl again. We had to stop at each floor n mine was at 9... 27 mins later than apointment im finally at waiting room... also alot of ppl here n i know my dr is still gon take hiw time till its my turn. The world hates me.

Somebody sitting 2 seats next to me brought their tablet n is drawing a comic panel, the art looks rly nice. Im rly trying not to b a creep by staring. I wish i could tell them im a fellow artist... ah alas they left. This rly masc dude, buzzcut, full of tattoos ect in front of me has cute lil pink bows on their black shoes. Seems to n lil plastic bits added after purchase. I think is very cute :3

I do hope i wont have to wait tooo much longer...

I try to eat smtg b4 i leave home but it always bites me in tge ass. I ate 3 slices of bread w choco. Im lowkey nauseous (i mean im in a nervous state had to hurry ect hhh). N my nose smeezy!!! Aaaaa.

Bruh beating myself up, i saw weatger will b poop, WHY DID I PUT MY SUNGLASES (+ CASE) IN MY HAND BAG.

Ok b so fr rn. I had to b at endo at 10.40 its 12 rn. I was 27 mins late yes BUT WHADAHELL? Theres been ppl b4 me also still waiting! Bruh

When i finqlly got out id had to havemy blood taken... but instead i left for movie... good tging bc i arrived just in time. It was n AMAZING movie... i shed many tears... i need to let it marinate b4 i talk ab it tho. 

After i went to friend house. Just chillin. We looked in a dog and a cat book. Wich was just us info dumping the whole time. He gave me bread pudding n now im omw home. 

Idk why but i feel jittery inside. My back hurt... toired...

Its 6.46 am

Im in bed eating bread pudding... is so good 

I bought a sleeveless shirt on vinted. I never rly bought 2nd hand clothes (just din grow up doing that. It was like a lil over 5€ incl shipping. I mainly just want a shirt that shows my tattoo on my left arm but short sleeves cover it. I have some tank tops but i maonly ise em as a pj top lol.

Anyway this is the shirt 

Idk if the skeleton is feom anything. Just thought it looked neat.

I also wanna wear accesories but anytime i try i feel like a lil kid that got in their moms jewelry box. Like rings dont rly fit my fat sausage fingers n bc my hands sweat i wash em alot...

Bracelets r also hhh. Theyre always so tight.

Its almost my bday!

I cannot think ab uh, thw passage of time/me getting older for too long. Like just brinfing it up n i need to calm down. It gen so terrifiying to me. I feel nauseous, i wamna burst out crying. I need to move on bc ill legit get a panic atack

Im gonna scroll tumvlr n sleep