16/04/26
14.47
Yesterday i told gran my nose spray is
almost empty. She said she would buy it this morning. This morning i
woke up she says shell get it at 13.30 bc she felt lazy. Im like yea
sure nw but i do rly need it asap bc its tge only thing keeping me sane.
Its now later. I get up... she din get it yet... my nose spray empty...
my whole face hurts so bad
Cw uh? Self harm? And needles. I will put it between -! content !- so ppl can skip
-! Im digging my nails in my gums bc the pain of that is stronger but more bareable then whatevee tf is foing on up my nose. Ive been doing that ever since i was a lil kid. Its hard to describe rly, like yea it hurts but its not bad? It helps me ground myself? I often end up jabbing needles in there too... realisticly i know this isnt good. But ive brought this up to many therapists n idk if i think its a bigger issue then it rly is or if they dont see how serious it actually is. It dosnt help that when i explain it im always rly monotone "yea i stab needles in my gums bc tge pain helps me ground myself" like how tf r u suposed to deal w that lmao. Esp when im sitting there looking like i just told em smtf mundane. !-
So anyway... gran is waiting for my brothers dad (to leave). So i went back to bed... aaaaaa
19.04
Hav nose spray, keeping me semi at bay. Ive ate. Mainly trouble w eye and drippy nose... untill meds start loosing its power then my whole face and head hurts. Been sitting w my eyes closed alot.
In the periods where i can look i play Tomodachi life living the dream :3
In the demo i made humanoid Guts, Jestica and Ilya. And in full release ive made Mika and im curently making Astra.
Also made Acedia!
17/04/26
01.41
Got in vc w friends, yippay. Still sick sads. I got outa bed rly late but i think im gon get in bed again bc im just getting annoyed hhh
But first, i treated myself to a lil something something :3 I bought new headset cushions and a matching uhh? elastic? They blue! And i got this lil pens for touchscreens, i saw they are suposedly good for switch? Gran has been asking for smtg like that for her tablet so i got a pack of 3. And i got an otoman? i think thats what its called? Its like a lil seat but u can take the top off and inside is storage! Been wanting one for months. Partially bc storage (i think i wanna put scrapbook stuff in there) and partially bc i wanna put it under my desk as foot rest (it has cushion ontop!)
Lietol pictur
