2 friends of mine wrote a story based on the DND campaign we played, im currently listening to it with text to speech bc 1 i need to do stuff and 2 i... reading... ough.
Anyway wanted to draw and i??? my fuckiong??? tablet??? I have 2 screens and i set it so my drawing tablet only functions on my main one. And i notice when trying to draw it was off? like my pen wasnt where it was supposed to be? and i check and i can use my pen on my second screen?? Sure enough when i look in the settings theyre wrong!! but all my shortcuts are correct?? im so confused
Eyes update, i wanna rip them out! I wanted to go to doctor again but theres a public transport strike. What if i just jump outa my window hmm. Pls all i want is to not have snotty eyes, is that so much to ask?
I woke up around 1am and stayed in bed till 6am, i was hoping to sleep more but whatever. Ill likely get tired earlier which ill need bc tomorrow friends will come over. Were going to label our merch together.
Rn im putting all my resources into one big google sheets thing. I can share it with difrent people then, keep it better organized and updated. Autism brain go crazy: "yippee i make a list yippeee"
Its up n running! at the top "WebDev Resources" obv still need to add more but i did put all my templates on it. When i finished doing that i know ive seen more templ;ates around... so def will keep my eyes (augh) open for that
When in bed i was looking trough the notes on my phone, I found some world building notes and a few rough drafts i wrote for Ilyas story (character of mine). I read it and most still lines up so thas cool. Theyre from 2021 tho. I think ill put them on my characters blog, its old but its something. Ive only shared bits n bops with 2 friends... well my best friend and my partner... Id love for more of my friends to know my characters but... im scared lmao.
My stories delve into some... uh... uncomfortable topics... some characters are morally questionable at best. And i know alot of my friends dont share my fascination for gore and grotesque things. Ill just have to tag stuff/add warnings i guess. But anxiety is like "u wrote smtg bad/weird, now they will think youre just like that character/condone the bad things". AND ALSO "the writers barely disguised fetish" IM MORTIFIED!! I DONT!!! NEED THEM TO KNOW THINGS THAT I DONT REALIZE MYSELF!!! Well and also ofc the "oh god im not good at writing stories, people will think im stupid" wich i mean, ill just have to get over (i used to have that about my art and thats now ok...)
Its now 18.05 im going feral, im gonna bite somebody
i resurrected my laptop and will b using that tomorrow for labeling. The colors of the screen r so dull compared to my monitors... also... so small... toiny
Imma skip food (will eat it when i wake up) and head to bed. Im just so frustrated and uncomfortable. Gran msgd DR, he hasnt replied yet (its friday so alot of ppl will b at his office) but i should get a nise spray prescribed n hopefully get it tomorrow.
Just one last thing, i sketched this lil doodle n imdietly got ideas for a new character. Theyre Called Eos, God of fortune and luck. Theyre often seen with Helion, god of the sun (warmth, power, life, yada, yada). I like to think that the thing between their antlers was a gift from Helion :3
Ok imma knock myself tf out b4 i crawl my eyes out...
...cough scroll my tumbly, eat a cookie and then fall asleep lmao